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Social distancing this is a strange term. This is because, well, I have never heard of it. Expect 2020 came and now this term is the biggest news. I thought we were supposed to be together as a human race. Social and distancing should not be put together and I didn’t know they could. Now I guess we must practice this strange worried thing. I think social distancing is just a made up term that should never be put together. Yet, it seems as if, in these crazy times of 2020 we must use this term. It’s truly crazy to think about, how we are this desperate, well I guess. In these times it’s also important for us to be careful what we read. We must consider what facts and fiction are.

As I sit at the fire. The feeling is a sharp warmth, but in a good way a type of warmth. Outside is just perfect, almost untouched. I hear the bigs doing their things and the animals doing the same. It gives me a sense of a greater being as though us people are not the only ones here on this planet. I also ponder the thought of what is going on right now in this crazy world. Covid 19 has driven us in a different place. I place we would not normally be even out of our skines a bit. Everthing has stopped and we are focoures to pretty much stay home and do enough for the most part.

There are some pretty important things we can do. We can think I know it sounds kinda crazy, but yes think. Sometimes we don’t get to just stop and remember all we have been though and embrace it. We have more time to be sevels and more time with the one who really matters the one over each of us. So I think we should make the best of this and use it to gain advantage and come back smarter and better than ever. 

With this we must not go too far either as we do need each other. If you feel bad for yourself just think about your friends or others. We are all going through this so we must look at it as a good thing in a way. We will see our friends soon again. Us being far from them has helped us see how we truly love them and need them.

“Smart is only smart if the smart know how to use smart”

“The rich are only rich if they are thankful, but the poor always seem thankful”

“What is smart? I only know hard working and will power”

“Live as if you were to die tomorrow. Learn as if you were to live forever” (Mahatma Gandhi)

What is pain? That suffering just means you can go harder. If you are thinking then think about victory.”

“If you like go get forgiven, then you must first forgiven”

“God has a plan for each and everyone of us”

“God’s timing is perfected we must just weight and be ready”

Sometimes life gives you set backs and yes they suck, but you have them. They make you fell as if you are a waste and just suck. You think, have I wasted my time should I even do this any more?Your wait is on your shoulders as one may say. With this you start to get in your head and think you suck. You may ask your self am I even good , it will drive you mad.

This was how most of the sunbelt rentals p/b Craft Ginger Ale time felt at their first team race or at lest most of the team member’s. This race was most definitely not the best one to have a bad day or off day to say the lest. It was at Tour of The Southern Highlands or “TOSH” this race as special as it was, was a junior selection race, what this means is that if you do well you can get on the nation team. The national team races for the USA in Europe later in the year. So yes, this races was important.

First was the TT, the second stage was the criterium, third was the circuit race, and forth and for most was the very hilly Road Race it was seventy five miles and it was the main selection race. During every stage we would have a folly or just find out it was plain hard as hell. We would come back in the next stage with just a little bit of hope that we would do better. By the last stage we were just hoping to finish with the group or even just finish.

So that last crazy day came and we had an early start to stage four. The race stared at 8:15 in the morning and with the thirty minute drive we ever up at 6:00. Oh and yes it was very cold and I mean like 28 or so. We got there and warmed up or tried and got to the stared line hoping for a better result or just to finish with the group. As we the group began to hit the climbs it got very hard and I was wondering how or if I was going to finish the race especially this being the 1st lap. David seemed to have a problem later and I would find out that he had his chain drop.

So yes the weekend was a let down, but what I had learned recently is you most take the good with the bad. You most use your failures as inspiration to do so much better in the future. It makes you wanted to do better even more than before, it puts fuel in the fire. The bad is what makes the good times seem so great and fun. It gives us something to compare it to. So you most look at the bad as just part of the process in live or what ever you’re doing. This is so very much a big part of cycling, it brings a lot of let downs, these let downs are what we most fight though. If we can make it though the bad parts of the sport, we know we truly like it for what it is. We don’t just like it because we are good at it. You most think to your self, am I doing something just because I am good at it or do I truly love it.

You most also be on top of your self mentally. You most have your head in the game and focus. You can’t worry to0 much about the other people you race. You need to just race your race as if you don”t know the people at all. You most race to win.

I have learned lots from this trip and yes I didn’t get the results I wanted, but what I got was something just as useful. I got experience and that is priceless I learned so many new things about the sport and more importantly myself. I learned what I need to do to better my self off and on the bike. I also got to know my new team mates better.

The Plane!

Moves stiff, but sill with aggression.

Fast, but effective.

Crazy beauty, through the clouds,

oh the clouds what a mergence site.

The small homes where all the sinful people lay,

In harmony!

The cars that get them to their jobs and homes.

The fields of green, oh of green they are so so much love!

So much beauty only beauty, 

incessant beauty.

If world as a whole is sinfully great.

So much love and greatness.

You must look,

For the love and pass the sinfulness.

Oh the hellish sin what a dammed thing. 

Look though the sin and at the truly amazing greatness!

I can’t it hurts too much!

Too Too Much! My legs hurt so so bad! 

I can’t I can’t say’s the dumb.

It’s too hard not worth it I don’t care.

The pain is too much. 

Not worth it, 

Not at all.

Pain I say pain a hellish thing!

I must stop, 

Oh yes stop,

Then no pain oh pain. 

There is to much pain, pain.

Pain well yes pain.

Pain is pain it’s great very great.

It is what makes the makings.

Pain is what makes it happen.

More pain more go more go more pain.

It back and forth what makes the strong then selfies.

Pain is not pain, its mind all the mind. 

The mind that fire.

Never pain or no pain there is no stopping!

None at all, never at all!

What pain, pain no!

Today I heard a story; it was different for a regular story. In fact, it wasn’t a story at all, really. It was more like a reason or a life. Wester’s defines a story as “an account of incidents or events”. I say this is much more than that; its life-changing. Its truly God’s works and his only. He is very significant, indeed. 

One day two humans came together to be married. This was a big step in their lives, yet what they didn’t know was it was going to get much better and that this was through God’s works. They were to find out that they could never have kids. Yes, this may seem like a crazy bad thing, but it turns out to be truly special. Because of this lousy thing, something good did come out of it. After some time, they decided to adopt; this turned out to be a very abnormal adoption, though. It was a bittersweet thing, yet at this time, it was just bitter. The mother was a drug addict, and she also became addicted. This made the situation so very bad. Trust me; there will be some sweet just keep reading. 

The days for this family were most definitely not the best. In fact, one time, their daughter ran away for school, and she was found two miles away. She was terrible in school and just driving the two pretty crazy, yet they did love her. In all this, they adopted another, a boy. 

As time passed, life got much better for them. She was doing so much better with just about everything. In fact, at one point, she wanted to try out for the middle school basketball time. She worked very very hard for the tryouts, but at the end of the day, she, unfortunately, didn’t make it. She was surprisingly not to down about this; she said: “well, I guess I will Just Have to Work Harder”. I love this because she realized something some people will never understand. In life, sometimes, you may just have to work harder. 

Something indeed from God was about to happen. The mother put that her kid wanted to be on the baseball team on Facebook. At that moment, something truly great happened, someone from my youth group thought, let’s have her on our basketball team. Now she is part of the team and making an enormous difference. She is here to help her parents learn new things and just making people’s days. God truly has and had a plan for her.

This got me thinking very deeply. How I love deep though it is the best kind of though. We are all given a path, and we honestly may not know where it leads us. There is no need to think of a plain because God knows what best for us, and he will make it happen. We may not know what it is now, but we must stay strong because this sinful world needs anyone and everyone it can get. God has our back all the time, yet it may not feel like it. However, if he did in the most obvious, then it would not be faith, it would be fact, and God needs us to have faith. God truly cares about every part of our lives; no matter what we need, he is here for us. Sometimes we may not know why God gives us people or things, but just know there is a reason that you will see later.

Always remember, sometimes we don’t know why. We just know there is a reason. God is beyond our understanding. Keep an open mind, and now yes, it will get better; just have faith in the Lord. An open mind is a better mind. Let’s see what life brings. 

As I lay in my bed,

I feel great presence a feeling of perfection.

The sun is always shining, the grass green, the people are always happy. 

The smell is like sweet candy.

The food with no flaws.

My job is great, so very easy.

Everything is even, we all have the same home and the same bed; it is plain.

The city is so very pretty- just like the ones in the cartoons, 

They tower over the whole world. 

I love the feeling of sameness, yet sometimes it indeed does feel unright.

It seems that one thing is not exactly the same as everything.

That is, us citizens of this great nation and utopia.

Us people are grateful, fully able to choose the job we wanted. 

Any job needed, this feels pretty great.

There is one thing I have heard,

This is that they are picked for us.

We just usually pick the right labor.

Some say and I think I seen,

the ones who choose wrong get taken,

 to the dump to be killed.

Yet, if I think about it it’s really their fault.

They are known as the wronged,

 they are messed up.

They are a man without a brain. 

It was one of those days. 

Where the sun was shining like gold and the weather was warm.

 It was a pretty great day in some people’s eyes. 

One of those days where the grass seems as green as a tv screen.

It was in one way for me just like that. 

Yet it wasn’t. 

It was a kind of bittersweet time.

A time where it is good or very good, but there’s a problem.

A problem that could be bad or not bad I didn’t know.

I know this girl’s love that was before.

There was still heat, still, something I could feel it I know it.

It still mangled in their hearts lake a small ember in a fire that is about to go out, but with any movement can start a whole new fire.

With my tensions high, I still tried thinking it somehow might fly.

That being said, I did know when to keep it unsaid.

I know that I must not tell the ones close to her last love.

I know this would be hard especially being close to many of her old lover’s friends.

One time it almost spilled. 

Yet somehow it didn’t and so the secret is kept.

It all started in a small town in South Carolina. This town was different in no way at all from any other. It has things like any other town has-people, cars, homes, teachers, schools, roads, highways, friends and family, and animals. It was located at the foot of some hills or what some may call mountains. The land was not flat but it was hilly, just not exactly mountainous. It was a town or a city as some people would call it. It had about 20,000 people living in it. These people were just like any other group of people, but they did have something special. They did not know that they had something special coming into their lives yet.

There was one man and he was about 5 feet 7 inches tall and 27 years old.  He lived in this town for 6 years now. His name was Josh and he moved here from Serbia. He was a loner and no one knew him. He was left all alone because no one liked the way he dressed or looked. This is why he didn’t have any true friends. He was the kind of man any woman would like to be married to; that’s if they talked to him and looked in his heart, but no one in this small town did. He was a real people’s person, just not these types of people, and they did not take time to really see him for who he was. 

What the people of this small town in South Carolina did not know about him was that he was very special in his country. Everyone loved him, not because he had money or other wealth, but just because he was a great person to be around. His overt friendliness made him famous as a locale of Serbia. This made him pretty well off as far as money goes, but he was not the type of man to live up to his tops. He didn’t believe in wasting money on things he didn’t need. He used the money to help other people who wouldn’t have the opportunity unless it was for him and his kindness. He was the richest man on earth, but he kept it a secret because he didn’t what people to be his friend based on wealth. He just wanted to be a nice person and have real friends.

Even though he loved making friends and loving people he was not doing that in his current state. Yet it was not his fault that the people of this town were afraid of him. What no one knew, not even him, was that one day this would all change. It would not just change his life, but the whole world. Josh would do something that would shock the entire world. It would be something great, but something unthinkable to any normal person.

First, we must go to a woman named Alex. She was short and fat. She was the kind of person looked down upon by just about everyone, especially the rich saints. She had been in jail 7 different times. Some of her charges included domestic abusive, drugs and yes more drugs; selling and using. She was a seller and user of just about every drug anyone could think of. She was abused as a child and just generally messed up. No one could see hope for her, not even the best people. Everyone who knew her, though she could and would never do anything other than doing and sell drugs. Yet somehow she was going to disprove everyone.

There was also Mr. Stierwalt. He was of average height with some gray hair. He was known as a kind and loving person. He had a good amount of money. He was the basic upper middle class of South Carolina. He had a good social status. He was not the type of guy that anyone would take for an evil person. Yet he seemed to have a problem. This problem started when his youngest son was hit by a car and died. If you talked to him you would say he was handling his son’s death like a pro. However, something in him changed making him go crazy and feeling hate for the strangest things. These things were not people, but more like minor concepts. For example: the concepts of love and forgiveness. 

One day this small town turned all the way around. That was the day Alex and Josh met. They just saw each other on the street. They both said to each other “I just had the smallest feeling I need to talk to you, I am not sure what about”. They knew it was something great. After some talking they knew what they had to do, this was straight from the feelings they got. They knew they had to change the world. They just were not sure how. 

One day everything flipped outside down when they realized what they had to do and how to do it. They realized that they had powers, but only when they were together the powers worked. Every time they got to know someone they would get those feelings, well it was more than feelings; they knew what people needed. They needed their help and love. They could automatically give these people the love they needed to help others. Some of the people needed more than just love they needed- their help and their truly loving gifts to help them through their problems. There was one problem though-Mr. Stierwalt. He knew their gifts somehow even though no one else did. He went after the people they helped and put them right back where they were in hell on earth. 

The helpers tried to use their powers on him many times, but it was useless. They even tried talking to him. All that ended with him trying to kill the good ones. There was only one thing left for them to do. Before they would have been glad to kill someone, but now their hearts felt different they felt mad about having to kill someone. Unfortunately with all the feelings, they did have they know what had to be done. The day they killed him the world would change forever. Love would be everywhere. There would be no more wars. Peace on earth would come true, unlike anything anyone could ever imagine. The Golden Rule would be used by every person. And it all happened because of some crazy force, or maybe God, that made two people who could never be kind and loving that indeed. This craziness changed the world.